I always assumed I’d be clamoring to get back into the city after being out in the burbs for a few months.
But lately, I don’t know where I want to be.
The ideal combination of things seems impossible to have all in one place.
While Chicago seems logical in terms of distance to people I know and love, familiarity and lots of things to do and see, it’s also expensive and once the baby is old enough for school, not known for it’s education system (because of bureaucracy, not lack of good teachers.)
I can’t help but envision being in a building with noisy neighbors or an outside laundry room or $250 heating bills. Or crime. Or no parking. Or not close to a grocery store. Or no pets allowed (we’d love to get a dog.)
Or rent that is more than half of my income.
Not to mention, there’s no nature. And this isn’t something I cared all that much about until I met someone who had a true appreciation for the outdoors and had a kid who could probably use fresh air.
I love Chicago, don’t get me wrong. But single, childless me was a much better fit for it.
I absolutely do NOT want to end up in a suburb, no matter where we go. I’d rather live in a small city, on a farm, in a camper or build a tiny house in the woods. Nothing against the convenience and relative safety of where we are now. But it’s hard not to feel like a bland, faceless person in a sea of commercial chains that stretch down the road only to repeat themselves in the next town.
I’d also love to live on a body of water or super close to the ocean.
But then it’s back to figuring out if we know anyone in these kinds of places and whether or not they’re a good place to raise a kid.
Not to mention, I need cultural diversity, as does my son, who I don’t want to be the only minority around. Though in order for him to be amongst other Asian Americans, we’d probably have to move to California.
I know we’re going to figure out this out. There’s also no urgency.
Sometimes it just feels overwhelming to settle on a place. Probably because I’m not the only one being affected by the decision.